Thirty-nine

In little more than one hour I will turn 39. It is strange. When I was 19 I was very excited to enter in my twenties, I knew I was going to get merried, get a house on my own, become a mother ... very exciting things.
When I was 29 I felt so sad and scared to be turning 30. I felt I wasn't 'so young' anymore, that chances and occasions and exciting things belonged to the past.
Now at ( almost ;) ) 39 I am so so excited at the idea to turn 40 next year. Yep call me crazy, but this new decade of my life that is about unfolding before my eyes will bring so many new things. I will see few of my children leave the nest, maybe getting married, and if I'm really blessed I might become a grandmother.
So this 39th birthday is somehow closing an era of my life. And as the grand finale of this third decade I want to make it special. I want to use my gifts, I want to share my joys, I want to love my children, I want to move in the direction of my dreams trusting they will become true.

39 beautiful things

1. My five children
2. My husband
3. My mother
4. My relatives
5. My yellow wooden house
6.  My caravan
7.  My woodstove
8. My garden
9. Having lunch out every once in a while
10. Waking up before everybody else
11. Nature around me
12. Traveling
13. Lapland
14. Tuscany
15. Going to the bookstore 
16. Baking bread
17. Listening to the chit-chatting of the children in their room
18. Trusting Jesus ( probably I had to put this in the top five ... )
19.  Sunrises and ...
20. ... Sunsets
21. Snow
22. Ferry trips
23. Birds
24. Hugs from my toddler boy
25. Kisses from my toddler boy
26. Talking seriously with my teenage boys
27. Laughing out loud with my doughter
28. Goodnight kiss from my youngest doughter
29. Working together with my family 
30. The secret language of the family
31. Nature Journaling
32. Watercolors
33. Drawing
34. Crocheting
35. Knitting
36. Taking pictures
37. Learning something new
38. Reading
39. Being alive

Life is beautiful

God is good

Happy Birthday to me